Life change why'm I feelin so sick
I remember when we met at age 6
Mortal Kombat sega genesis it gave us bliss
The innocence was common it created friendship
Taught each other baseball and played to days end
Felt like we was pro even signed each other's mitts
Used to race to first base who had the best sprint
Who would think that batting practice made you swing and miss
Age 9 I remember you was bein strange
Actin with rebellion shook your own mothers faith
I remember seein worriment up on her face
And she told my momma that she said it's just a phase
And a parents happiness is how their kid facilitates
And a mother worried only cares and demonstrates
Went to therapy to take your rage away from your mental state
And through those days I learned to empathize and make my homie great
But you don't wanna listen
15 started gettin cozy with the mischief
Found what you want smokin blunts with the misfits
Hit me with the pain in your eyes like a slit wrist
Tried to see the bigger picture, edit it and fix it
But you went for fixes that enabled your addiction
18 you were caught and incarcerated for flippin
Used to try and flip a house instead you went and flipped bricks
How them 4 walls feel dawg
How it feel when you broke your moms heart
How it feel when you ain't play your part
Now you gone, thanksgiving gets too hard
And that's real, every night your mom cry
And you a bitch, did the best for your life
Left a dream behind to see her son shine
Father Time ain't kind to the unwise
Discern me
Unworthy
Just learn me
Don't hurt me
Unworthy
Discern me
Unworthy
God hurt me
Fight the pain I feel the feelings fall
Fight the hate I feel the demons call
Fight the pain I feel your feelings gone
Start to hear your name I'm torn apart
Start to heal but still I feel the scars
Had to welcome hell with open arms
Tried to realize I should play my part but...
Run up that check, Run up that check, Run up that check
Run up that bank, run up that bank run up that bank
Run up that game, run up that game, run up that game
Run up that clock, run up that clock, feelin fate
Get fucked from the jump dawg
How it feel in them four walls
Did you reach out your arms
Pray the lord gone respond
Did you dialogue with god
Find forgiveness in a few psalms
Found the world in your palms
Found hope in a new start
Tussle tween the love and hate the demons angels fightin lead the way
Takes a lot of heart to turn my back but life is life can't place ya fate with Hate
I never came to visit heard your momma cryin know we feelin too betrayed
And truth be told ya dead to me this songs a sermon treat it as a fuckin wake
Get fucked from the jump dawg
All alone know it gets hard
Git right from a few wrongs
To the devil you belong
Made moms go through withdrawal
Put drugs in they palms
Hope the kids don't die young
Hope the real ain't Fall off
See I'm prayin devastated, really coulda been the same as you
Love is love but wit no trust I start to love the have I need to use
Feel like I'm goin insane, try to do right every day, found my salvation today
But money made you salivate, if only you witness the pain, maybe you won't be the same
The look of ya mommas disgrace, the pain thatcha momma embraced