You know just how to
Brew your coffee so every flavor shows its teeth
You take your time with each section of my spine, babe
You really know just how to please
You're meticulous with every grocery list
You've got a garden growing green
I smile silently, you're staring back at me and say
"Tell me what you're thinking for a penny"
But I don't wanna tell you why I don't cry anymore
How many nights I've spent clutching my knees against the floor
I buy precooked rice
And I'm not that nice to myself
I don't wanna show you what it's like behind my smile
So I'll just keep my thoughts at bay and kiss you for a while
Let's keep our lips busy, get a little dizzier
Blurring this illusion that I've built for you
Don't shatter it now
Don't shatter it now
You get up early, you go on runs
Six miles through the city just for fun
You revel in the stillness of the morning
Invite me to the desert without any sort of warning
I take my pills at eleven
Get out of bed at quarter 'til
Can't seem to find where I've misplaced my peace of mind
But believe it or not, this is how I heal
But I don't wanna tell you why I don't cry anymore
How many nights I've spent clutching my knees against the floor
I buy precooked rice
And I'm not that nice to myself
I don't wanna show you what it's like behind my smile
So I'll just keep my thoughts at bay and kiss you for a while let's
Keep our lips busy, get a little dizzier
Blurring this illusion that I've built for you
Don't shatter it now
Don't shatter it now
You can buy me jade
We can hope it grows
But today, I'm still too petrified to genuinely show you who I am
But I'll eat your homemade jam
I don't wanna cry for you, won't open up that door
So I'll just get my things and drive away, just like before
I'll try to keep myself busy
Stop getting dizzy
I'll hide behind this cold, aloof illusion
So for the sake of settling confusion
It's over now
It's over now