It's like they got me in a spin cycle
Pinned down like bulletin boards reaching back I'm pulling the cord
Trying to stop myself from falling victim to the same report
Rapper with that vision comes up missing you can blame the culprits
It's such a system they give us boxes to fit in
And slip the toxins in food we eat telling us it's nutritious
Selling us all the medicine relative to our sickness
Relatives die too young we become our families litmus
Studied with microscopes we'd like to hope life would be different
Full of two types who sleep at night and dream lives of magicians
To reach new heights with leaps and spikes to redefine our meaning of flight
To teach the little black girls who leap in leotards and tights
That they don't have to twerk or work a pole to live a decent life
And cherish their complexion cause a star is only seen at night
To see the light you need the same darkness from our recent plights
The thoughts that we were lost and make it hard for me to sleep at night
And it's like even when they treat us wrong
I'm gonna keep my head up and i'm gonna sing my song
I'm dusting off the shoulders that i'm leaning on
I'm trying to get up off this sofa that I'm sleeping on
But i've been screaming from the bleachers all season long
I support my team cause I just wanna see em ball
I listen back to niggas tracks and I proceed to yawn
I'm trying to dream but barely gettin any sleep at all
Man i'm scared of being popular
Paparazzi canon flashes cameras with binoculars
Standing next to Amber Rose is ammo for the gossipers
They write the whole novel and get it twisted like it's oliver
I'm gifted, cause when I spit it's Christmas mixed with Hanukkah
Wrapping all my presents through a microphone and monitors
I came into the game wondering if I would survive
I looked up at the night sky and saw my future like astrologists
Searching for an R&B diva that look like Monica
Without the finger snappin and attitude of a toddler
Been had it up to the ceiling something like chandeliers
And from the way that I'm feeling I won't be married for years
Until I get divorces from all this tortures misses norbitz
I feel like somethings lost and it's apparent like an orphan
And if it's not the women who like polygamy like mormons
It must be what's inside of me and it triggers when I'm dormant
And it's like even women treat us wrong
I'm gonna keep my head up and i'm gonna sing my song
I'm dusting off the shoulders that i'm leaning on
I'm trying to get up off this sofa that I'm sleeping on
But i've been screaming from the bleachers all season long
I support my team cause I just wanna see em ball
I listen back to niggas tracks and I proceed to yawn
I'm trying to dream but barely gettin any sleep at all
This last verse is like my last purchase
Trying to find a value in material things I deem worthless
But even worse is my attitude towards my altitude
Cause I've been low for so long my self esteem and attributes
Have helped my dreams become reality seem unmatchable
Gassed up like monster trucks while other cars are passing you
So I scratch my head to light the fire let the passion through
Ignite my inner light inside of books just like the matches do
I know sometimes the metaphors uncatchable
It could be that my head's ahead of yours and I've been lapping you
Or maybe I've been laying down my hair and taking naps on you
No tortoise in this forest is catching up that just unnatural
I'm smoking when it's racing, maintain a fair distance
I'm here to tell smoky to get a chair and bear witness
Staring out the window towards the city as I spit this
Relentless and never asking for forgiveness
And it's like even If I treat you wrong
Just keep your head up go on sing your song
I'm dusting off the shoulders that i'm leaning on
I'm trying to get up off this sofa that I'm sleeping on
But i've been screaming from the bleachers all season long
I support my team cause I just wanna see em ball
I listen back to niggas tracks and I proceed to yawn
I'm trying to dream I guess I'll get a little sleep tomorrow