Dear Mamma It's almost my birthday You knew I'd use my thumbs They flick the ashes to the ground And keep me on the run Now, Dear Mamma Is it frightening to watch yourself get old? Mamma, will I know when I've found home? Now, Dear Mamma It seems to me Just the sun and moon are real And they're the furthest things The furthest things from my touch (From my touch) Well, I don't like who I am Who I've been Or who I'll be And I know my reflection I am a monster I am the beast And dear Mamma there's no one left but you to pray You to pray for me Now, Dear Mamma The sun is rising And it's all uphill from here and I've been running from a levee That's gushing water still Mamma I'm so sorry, well, for all, of my mistakes If forgiveness is real, then I might live another day Now, Mamma I think I'm broken Was I born this way? I'm the worst person that I've ever been And too guilty to explain Well, I don't like who I am Who I've been Or who I'll be And I know my reflection I am a monster I am the beast Dear Mamma, there's no one left but you to pray You to pray for me Pray for me Pray for me Now, Dear Mama I know you still pray And know you pray for me Oh, Mamma, when you talk to God pray that he sets me Free Free