Running from my problems daily i'm lapping
Lately been relapsing on my flaws and my bad habits
I been sad I broke up with my ex he don't find me attractive
He just tell me he still love Me just so he can keep me Trapped
I messed it up with my day one that rocked with me before I rapped
Held all my problems so long he ended up seeing me snap
Everytime I hit him it's a bunch of imma call you backs with no call back
I lost my only Friend I hate myself for That I hate myself for everything I do
Everything I say
Everything I lose and everything I made
I don't do this for you
Don't do this for they
I been on the move
I'm too young to stay got ADD
I can't even keep my mind in place how imma stay
Been messed up for a while
F ya meditate and namastes
I don't even talk to god no more so tbh how imma pray
Don't even got things figured out but like keep screaming andele
My mind been holding So much weight I don't Even know what imma say
But they say suck it up this the life you was given
Second guess thoughts when I thought I even said it
I wanna frank drive in the ocean in a rover that's rented cause all this pain
I went Through left me so dented
Everybody acting different to me probably paranoid
And i'm tripping
I don't go out I don't like the attention and not to mention
Niggas fake they hate me now And want me dead
But They gon' act like they all love me when i'm gone
And i'm finished Let's talk about it change
It's not hereditary love Been scarce scared of love I hate February
I been close to death a hunned times I guess it can be scary
Life ain't really hit me till the seventh day of january
I ain't really gonna jump in the matter
But in that hospital bed - all I heard from demons was laughter
I beat my wrists up so much they thought a nigga got battered
Moral of story - a sister almost ended her chapter but aye i'm still here!
Nigga I lived
I only care about the quality word to Talib
I kept it moving and i'm acting like it ain't even happen
Kinda like how family act
When you tell them you saddened now that's some sad shit
All my life I grew up as the outcast the bad kid the
Shut your mouth you're going
Through a phase you ain't sad Kid
Never won awards for nun you ain't never had shit
So i'm gonna count it up and spend it Till I vanish magic
I Never believed in it I hate bringing it up cause it feel i'm reliving it
I hope I come to peace with Diamond so i'll say we did it
I appreciate the grit in her because we really lived it always dreamed of living lavish
Now I got LV on my belt
I guard my heart with all my demons - they don't know how I felt
That's why I always want the smoke - I load the G's in the l's
Cause the main person always fighting me was myself
Damn