What am I supposed to do now that you're gone I can't go on Edinburgh to Africa felt like a blink I'm on my knees And I'm holding on to every scrap, every piece of paper I can find I'll hold it like I used to hold you They say that I need to adapt They say "move on" But I'll still call you mine I'll love you like I've always loved you I guess I'm the girl who lost her grip They gather around and watch me slip as I do my best Try to fix this mess Of course, I'll just make things worse Because I'm the girl who lost her grip on reality Lost all sense of normality Lost all control Too far gone to console What a poor restless soul How am I supposed to laugh now that you're gone It feels so wrong Upstate New York to a small town in New Jersey A house that should've been for you and me I guess I could try to live here, but it wouldn't be the same without you, dear I'd be lonely They say that I need to adapt Learn to cope But how can I do that when you were my one and only I guess I'm the girl who lost her grip They gather around and watch me slip as I do my best Try to fix this mess Of course, I'll just make things worse Because I'm the girl who lost her grip on reality Lost all sense of normality Lost all control Too far gone to console What a poor restless soul Does it make me a bad person for trying to live in the past It's somewhere where I can still reach you Would you hate me if you saw me trying way too hard to make this last Don't think that I'm ready to leave you I guess I'm the girl who lost her grip They gather around and watch me slip as I do my best Try to fix this mess Of course, I'll just make things worse Because I'm the girl who lost her grip on reality Lost all sense of normality Lost all control Too far gone to console What a poor restless soul