There's a lump in my throat
And I'm tryna push it down
Will I feel any better once it's gone?
Don't wanna feel what I've become
So I'll sit here getting numb
There's a lump that won't go, that won't go
There's a lump in my throat
I hit my all-time low
But I'm better off thinking that
I can dig myself out of this hole
But I don't know
This doesn't feel like there's somewhere to go
This doesn't feel like before on
High sensory overload, load, load
Just because my mind says
"We're breaking down slow"
Doesn't mean I'm bailing out
So steady as she goes
There's a lump in my throat
And I'm tryna push it down
Puff a smoke, two benzos
Try to ride it, ride it out
Don't wanna feel what I've become
So I'll sit here getting numb
There's a lump that won't go, that won't go
There's a lump in my throat
Time has never been on my side
Been caught tryna figure out
Why I'm a little less Jekyll than Hyde
And I get tired
This doesn't feel like there's somewhere to go
This doesn't feel like before on
High sensory overload, load, load
Just because my mind says
"We're breaking down slow"
Doesn't mean I'm bailing out
So steady as she goes
There's a lump in my throat
And I'm tryna push it down
Puff a smoke, two benzos
Try to ride it, ride it out
Don't wanna feel what I've become
So I'll sit here getting numb
There's a lump that won't go, that won't go
There's a lump in my throat

My mind says we're breaking down slow
Baby, I ain't bailing out so steady as she goes
My mind says we're breaking down slow
Baby, I ain't bailing out, so steady as she goes
There's a lump in my throat
And I'm tryna push it down
Puff a smoke, two benzos
Try to ride it, ride it out
Don't wanna feel what I've become
So I'll sit here getting numb
There's a lump that won't go, that won't go
There's a lump in my throat