I told myself I liked being alone but I lied Now I'm across the world trying to find out why Not sure I'll find the cure but I need to try Or watch myself die I told my parents I was leaving to get help Before I burn all the love in my family house I always take the easy way out But I'm not giving into doubt I've got a heavy heart But I want to make it light But I want to make it light My dark pushes and pulls But I swear that I'll still fight When the world and I collide I said I liked being alone but I lied to myself 'Cause it scares me more than anything else I've been thinking about nothing but myself Forgot to love anyone else How could I blame you for finding someone else? 'Cause I know I haven't been myself And I think I need to get some help But I want to keep this hell to myself I've got a heavy heart But I want to make it light But I want to make it light My dark pushes and pulls But I swear that I'll still fight When the world and I collide I've got a heavy heart My dark pushes and pulls But I swear that I'll still fight When the world and I collide I've got a heavy heart But I want to make it light But I want to make it light My dark pushes and pulls But I swear that I'll still fight When the world and I collide I've got a heavy heart But I want to make it light But I want to make it light My dark pushes and pulls But I swear that I'll still fight When the world and I collide