I never saw the ocean that way I never tried to leave I've been so down that I could cry I've been so up that I was high I never saw the fields that way It's all beautiful to me I'm feeling anxious more and more I'm staring at the floor I'm staring at the floor so I don't fall apart I'm not trying for the best days It's only way I know I'm looking forward to the days and nights, the rumors And the only times I feel like I'm a part of something Is when I'm breaking down to you I swear I'll always tell the truth And really, I don't mean to sound so insincere When you were down I tried my best to offer some sort of half-assed conversation But all along, I've kind of felt that waking up brings hope to sweat And never digging yourself out isn't really helping I never cared about the bad days or how they came to be Basements to rooftops, messed up chords I always forgot the words I spend way too much time in driveways But it's hard to go inside when you realize how good it gets I wish I realized that more And really, I don't mean to sound so insincere When you were down I tried my best to offer some sort of half-assed conversation But all along, I've kind of felt that waking up brings hope to sweat And never digging yourself out isn't really helping How many times will it take for me to go outside? I can't relate, and the street just seems so long today You try to change the world and feel useless I've gotten good at making excuses I've gotten good at making excuses I've gotten good at making excuses I've gotten good at making excuses I've gotten good at making excuses