Don't know what I wanna do with all my time
I guess that emptiness is just a part of my design
I hope my shitty life at least looks good online
I guess that play pretend is just a way of getting by
And I hope that I'm getting better
Faster than I'm getting older
I don't wanna die
But I just keep on getting colder
Can't really remember
The last time that I was sober
I look in the mirror and think to myself
Are you sad
Because you're drunk?
Are you drunk
Because you're sad?
I can't tell if I've gone mad
My mind is overheating
Am I miserably high
Or on the edge of paradise?
I must have really lost my mind this time
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If they ask me how I'm doing I'll just lie
Don't wanna kill the vibe
And say I'm hurting all the time
I hope my shitty life at least looks good online
Confusing how the sadness
Gets me feeling kinda high
And I hope
That I'm getting better
Faster than I'm getting older
I don't wanna die
But I just keep on getting colder
Can't really remember
The last time that I was sober
I look in the mirror and think to myself
Are you sad because you're drunk?
Are you drunk because you're sad?
I can't tell if I've gone mad
My mind is overheating
Am I miserably high
Or on the edge of paradise?
I must have really lost my mind this time
This time
This time
This time