I'm not ashamed to admit it
I am the person responsible for all the pain that I'm feelin'
Can't nobody hurt me, like I hurt myself
Do it all of the time an I haven't been healin'
I don't think I'll make it so
I take another one straight
No I don't need no chaser
Lately, I've been getting too wasted
Feel like it's just me vs. the world
Yeah, I know everyone hates me
This is the way that it has to be
So I'm still running from whatever is after me
I deserve all of it, do not feel bad for me
Self-inflicted, all the wounds, do it happily
I got nobody to call on
The love that I had has been long gone
In my whole life I've been misunderstood
Yeah, this whole damn world has got me all wrong
I just want to be myself
They want me to change, they say when I drink, that I should see myself
Been dyin' inside, I'ma need my health
Why you only come around, when you need my help?
I remember being suicidal
Devil waitin' on my arrival
I pushed the limit so many times
I don't know why I still survived though
No holdin' me back
My spirit is under attack
Have I fallin' into a trap
Usually I don't get attacked
Hey, I'ma tell y'all about the pain that I felt all my life
I've become numb to the pain and it starts to feel right
So give me what you got
You could do your worst
Send a hunnid shots
Put me in the dirt
You must have forgot
How much I'm really hurt
You must have forgot
You must have forgot
So give me what you got
Wondering if I'm gone, or I'm not
All I know is I'm all alone in my thoughts
I see you feeling right at home on the block
You can change in the hand that you got
They say that only time will tell
I spent a lil time in hell
Commissary inside the cell
All the time I was in the penitentiary
Ain't a person in the world come and visit me
Man, that really does something hard to your pride
How you do so much wrong, you ain't worth nobody time
Way too many times, it was weighing on my mind
I was laying every night, contemplating suicide
I don't make believe, really got a guardian angel saving me
Only reason I'm still alive
Thankfully, became who I aim to be
You hate, but you can't compete
Sometimes I think, that I'm somebody
Other times I think, that I'm nobody
I ain't never wanna have to breakdown work
But I want the fast night, I don't go with the slow money
I don't make excuses, I create solutions
I don't hang with losers, busy makin' moves
And I don't got no time to be chasing cooch
My life is an inspirational movie
No holdin' me back
My spirit is under attack
Have I falling into a trap
Usually I don't get attacked
Hey, I'ma tell y'all about the pain that I felt all my life
I've become numb to the pain and it starts to feel right
So give me what you got
You could do your worst
Send a hunnid shots
Put me in the dirt
You must have forgot
How much I'm really hurt
You must have forgot
You must have forgot