My friends left me to die
There's purple under my eyes
My raw meat is creepy as fuck
There blood and flies over us
The book you told me to read
It wasn't really interesting
I wonder if there's a message for me
I shouldn't miss this at all but I do
'Cause lately the news isn't so, so good
I don't wanna die
I'm trying to survive
But sometimes I'm too scared
And I can't even tell you why
'Cause eating isn't enough
And baby I'm not an addicted
I just can't help it
Oooh
But the lonely nights
The cold nights
The champagne
The neon lights
I'm moving on
But sometimes
I want it all again
The highlights
The movie nights
The drunk talk
The easy life
I hate it but I appreciate it
Cause lately the news isn't so so good
My boyfriend's worried about me
He thinks I'm not being sincere
'Cause every night when it's cold
I feel like throwing up
I miss going out with my friends
Going to markets and staying up late
And drinking a lot alcohol
Even though for me it wasn't enough
I shouldn't miss this at all but I do
Cause lately the news isn't so so good
I don't wanna die
I'm trying to survive
But sometimes I'm too brave
I can't even tell you why
'Cause eating is not enough
And maybe I'm an addict
I just can't help it
Oooh
The crying nights
The lonely nights
The: I don't have any friends and I wanna die
I'm moving on but sometimes
It haunts me all again
The monsters inside my head
The summer that never came
I hate it
I hate it, I hate it, I hate it