Lately I don't really know what's goin' on inside of me
I wake up every day and I just drown in my anxiety
Know I can't complain so I just suffer through it silently
But there's a disconnect from who I am and who I'm tryna be
N-n-never change, demonstrate
Cyclic habits everyday
Pray to God who's merciful and hope that I see 29
Maybe I should slow it down and stop fearin' complacency
But if I'm bein' honest dawg
I think that it's too late for me
I'm way gone, I'm talkin' way gone
Ain't tryna stay long
The pain come and fuck my days up
I'm gettin' preyed on
I been tryna grow
I been tryna rest
I just wanna slow down and catch a breath
Thou cannot control, overthinkin' though
So many things in this life that I regret
Done pretending
Unrelenting pain, but I'm too numb for venting
Funds ascending
But I got a funny feelin' God'll put me in a humble ending
Just depending
Only got four people in life that'll hold me down
Everybody else two-faced
I don't got the heart to call you my homies now
Used to think I want a lot of friends and now I'm all alone
I am not complaining, I know that it's the way it's gotta go (go)
Still I feel there's something burnin' deep inside my soul
Maybe just a broken boy that's healin' from a broken home
You, I'm a slave to your violence
Look at all that you put me through
Got me hooked on the silence
I've been your slave and I can't escape from
You, I'm a slave to your violence
Look at all that you put me through
Got me hooked on the silence
I've been your slave and I can't escape from
Lately I don't really know what's goin' on inside of me
I wake up everyday and deep depression strike me violently
Maybe it's in solitude, but people really bother me
I'm better off alone
I told myself I swore it solemnly
But honestly I'm feelin' like my soul is confused
I guess the way that I grew up has left me prone to abuse
'Cause I been drinkin' and I mix it with some coke and some shrooms
Inhaling smoke so I can hold it 'til I choke on the fumes
But I been livin' large, spittin' bars
Whippin' 'round in different cars
This is not a flex because my happiness I disregard
Uh, this the shit that I dream 'bout
Ask my family, I peaced out
Just to get some racks, but if not for that
Where the fuck would I be now?
I wake up and I could feel my heart pounding
Tell me what have I been running from? Me
Did the right thing and I still doubt it
Won't somebody fuckin' help me out
You, I'm a slave to your violence
Look at all that you put me through
Got me hooked on the silence
I've been your slave and I can't escape from
You, I'm a slave to your violence
Look at all that you put me through
Got me hooked on the silence
I've been your slave and I can't escape from
You