I had an epiphany last night
Turns out I might be alright
Don't get mad, I miss you bad
I'm skilled at taking pills not prescribed for me
I've been drowning, got some gills to breathe
Yeah, I've been dealing
I'm rebuilding, I'm rebounding
Are you proud of me?
I've been ridiculous all my life
Lonely for the last time
I blame my dad
I'm sick of fucking up
Still learning as I go
I'm 3 days sober just so everybody knows
Now I've been missing for a minute
Been way over the limit
Been dealing with a nightmare
Yeah, you're always in it
Yeah, I try to keep it all in
Bottle it up, let it win
But I had an epiphany last night
Turns out I might be alright
So hold off the goodbyes
Now I know I'm not a bitch
I know I jet on
But I felt like shit for so damn long
Yeah, it's no quick fix
Don't get me wrong but honestly, it's real to me
Sticks and stones may break my bones
But your words really crushed me
Brush my teeth to this beat
Last year really fucked me
Now I've been missing for a minute
Been way over the limit
Been dealing with a nightmare
Yeah, you're always in it
Yeah, I try to keep it all in
Bottle it up, let it win
But I had an epiphany last night
Turns out I might be alright
So hold off the goodbyes
I'm sick of fucking up
Still learning as I go
I'm 3 days sober just so everybody knows
I wanna be in love
That we can take it slow
I'm 3 days sober just so everybody knows
Now I've been missing for a minute
Been way over the limit
Been dealing with a nightmare
Yeah, you're always in it
Yeah, I try to keep it all in
I try to keep it all in
But I had an epiphany last night
Turns out I might be alright
So hold off the goodbyes
Now I've been missing for a minute
Been way over the limit
Been dealing with a nightmare
Yeah, you're always in it
Yeah, I try to keep it all in
Bottle it up, let it win
But I had an epiphany last night
Turns out I might be alright
So hold off the goodbyes
Last night, oh fuck
I fucked it up again
It's all I ever fucking do