There's no autumn here
The leaves just turn from green to grey in a day
It feels like nothing's changed
It's the same picture in a different frame
I'm not alright
And I don't know why
At this point
I'm just searching, I'm searching for signs
(I don't wanna run, I don't wanna hide)
I'm not alright
(I don't want to be, so scared to die)
And I don't know why
(I don't wanna run, I don't wanna hide)
At this point
(I don't know where to go, so I'm searching for signs)
I'm just searching, I'm searching for signs
To tell me where to go
Because I can't stay home
When I close my eyes
And think about my life
All I remember are the times I felt defeated
Under the couch where I am seated are the missing pieces that I never found
I'm amazed that I'm still around
Now I live in
More flashbacks than I do in real time
Can someone offer me a remedy,
Or just a piece of their peace of mind
Like a cavalry
Armor clad black, on their steeds
Driving their lances through
Every single good feeling in me
I'm not alright
And I don't know why
At this point
I'm just searching, Im searching for signs
The picture is the same
Just in a different frame
I used to sit on the third story ledge
And look down cus I wasn't scared
Now the slightest inconsistency
Incapacitates me
I fear im beyond repair