Absence of control
Bleeding out my nose
Terrified of losing my life
I've stayed the same
But you changed my ways
Gave my everything to being who you think I am
When i was younger I looked to the stars
When the questions I was asking weren't being answered
But now the only faith I can proclaim I hold
Is living in a lockbox, wishing that my washed up ass to get a job
All I do is fuck up
What happened to our love
I don't want to imagine that this is all my fault
Bought a gun yesterday
All it shoots is blame
And I got my sights on anyone who's gonna leave me today
I know I'm better than this
I need someone to help me
I can't come clean alone
So put some pressure on me
Now it's dark and I am shaking
I can't stop rambling
Incoherently
I need some consistency
Cus I'm not listening
To my body's crying pleas
Please give me more urgency
Deliver me to honesty
Swing the hammer on my demons
Just make sure you don't kill them
This is my
This is my
This is my unfortunate future
This is my
This is my
This is my unfortunate future
This is my
This is my
This is my unfortunate future
This is my
This is my
This is my unfortunate future now
So put some pressure on me
To live the life that I never believed