I'll tell you all my lies Want me living right But I cant do that Everybody's tried Since my sister died nothing's working I take all my pills You give me my thrills But I cant change Drugs just hide the pain Why's it all in vein? I wont seek your love Too ready to run Beat you to the exit like it's fun What did I just do? It all fell through Ate a loaded gun Havent seen the sun in days since you Said I never loved you You'd understand why you should go If you know my plans to die I'd rather leave you behind less traumatized I'm sorry for that sacrifice No one understands If they do they'll tell Then I'm committed Send my cry for help Nothing makes me well It just gives munitions Life's a living hell I dont want to pull you through these conditions Let me right my wrongs Make a couple songs Maybe I'll feel different I need to fight my past Need to find the reason that I'm so distant I grew up abused I was always used by people ID call friend I cant find the bounds We wont make it now Im too far down Please forgive me No pity You dont know that you need this space Oh, im just keeping you safe Please don't forgive me That's just litany And you dont need that No, you dont need that