The first time I did cocaine
The pleasure didn't really feel like pain
But I lied awake 'til 8 A.M. alone
The first time I ran away
I thought that nothing was the same
And I crawled the empty streets to greet the dawn
And every morning, there's a foul taste in my mouth
As I chew my frontal lobe, and spit the pieces out
I can't control the days
This ship is rocking, let it sway
The night just means the moon is there for you
The first time that I lied to you
It seemed so real, it felt like truth
And even now, I don't know what you believed
First time the sky fell down
It didn't even make a sound
And the blinding light kept me awake for days
And in the darkness, I can almost see your face
And I'm reminded of a time and of a place
We gave our bones away and danced until the break of day
We'd set ourselves on fire if we knew the truth
'Cause you're ablaze for me, and me for you
First time we fell asleep
The boiling water tasted sweet
The sky was getting greener every day
First time the lights went out
Your candles burned away the clouds
And bitter night turned into bitter day
And everywhere I go, I'm followed by my doubts
The echoes turn to oceans, whispers turn to shouts
Well, never mind the rain, our hair is wet, our skin is gray
And I am getting further from the truth
At least I know that you were falling too