How many times were you there Because you felt like you had to How many calls did you miss Then say that you didn't mean to When you were really with her Just admit honestly I'm used to it now I've never been treated fairly Everyone said Just give it time to get better But they didn't know that It was just getting harder To get a grip on my life And it was getting tighter Felt like I could die And everything would be better Felt like I could just die Can't get a grip on my life I think I'm losing touch I can feel my insides Leave me here or bury me alive 'Cause I'm starting to love the ones that lie And I can't let myself be free 'Cause everything that hurts is what makes me happy How many tears should I cry When I talk on the phone with you I'll only be fine When I'm the one that's alone with you And it'll shatter my heart If you let your guilt get in the way So you'll put me first or I'll put you down And I know it'll hurt she's not even around And the scars even it out careful who you're surrounded by I wouldn't trust the discretion of those other guys Leave me here or bury me alive 'Cause i'm starting to love the ones that lie And I can't let myself be free 'Cause everything that hurts is what makes me happy