I was raised to never disagree
With the whims and will of society
I was taught to follow my "destiny"
Set by those who care about posterity
They told me that I would be happy
Though I feel that's quite the contrary
I was made the lovely bride to be
Made to raise my own happy family
Despite all that I have been given
I could never see myself forgiven
If I were to ever stray away
From the path they put me underway
I was born without a right to say
My own thoughts didn't matter anyway
What I wanted was irrelevant
My own will is thought to be decadent
Creeping, crawling, all through my very skin
Gnashing, mending, all for my only kin
Bending, breaking, buckling under thin
Bleeding, bruising, flesh from deep within
What was I to do with these tendencies?
Feeling like I committed felony
Accusations forming like treachery
I don't want to be seen as guilty
Heads up! Please don't touch me
Just hold back, please don't hurt me
Stay away, it's not safe, just obey, keep at bay!
Hey, you! Please stay with me
"Let's be friends?", please don't out me
Make amends, privileged ends, hiding sin, life begins
I was never one to disagree
With the whims and will of society
Always stick to what is familiar
Though what she feels I feel similar
Just another cog in the machine
Made to keep it lovely and pristine
I was made the handsome groom to be
Made to start my own happy family
I would always fall in line for thee
For the sake of my survivability
Never questioned what was relevant
So that I would not seem decadent
But my time has come to settle down
Set by those who would look down and frown
For the sake of my posterity
I will give my whole vitality
Mending, building up quite the matrimony
Feeling, crying out for insurgency
Walking, pacing, out so wordlessly
Gleaming, smiling, laughing so forcibly
This has always seemed like the normalcy
Acting out a lie so half-heartedly
Keep the facade up so cheerfully
Was this meant to be my eternity?
Oh the rising tides come with me
Acting like a fool with such glee
Ever waiting loyal I promise!
Ceremonial in process
Vines they grow along my vision
Oh, the lovely fruit they've given
Placing me into submission
Wedging cracks among division
Oh, the gentle wind that soothed me
Breezing by when I once was free
Howling into old tradition
Bending me into "perfection"
Thorns along the vines they've caught me
Burrowing like roots of the tree
Giving up on my whole being
Sacrifice the dreams I'm seeing
Heads up! Please don't touch me!
Just hold back, please don't hurt me
Stay away, it's not safe, just obey, keep at bay
Hey, you! Please stay with me!
"Let's be friends?", Please don't out me
Make amends, privileged ends hiding sin, life begins
We were never ones to disagree
With the whims and will of society
We had always values conformity
So that we cold please our family
Despite all the things we have given
We could never see ourselves forgiven
We could never go against the tides
Our true colors always forced to hide
Heads up! Please just take me
Don't hold back, it won't hurt me
It's okay, we're not safe, keep that face, take a taste
Hey, you! Please stay with me!
"We're not friends? It's so lonely"
Caving in, feeling bent, taking sin, life begins
Oh the woeful kiss we've given
Acting out as our contrition
Work to silence their suspicion
Giving into such tradition
Taken against my volition
Yearning for the abolition
Of such backwards obligation
Bringing out such forced seduction