Breath aligning with word
Carefully observed
Attentive to detail
Life, at no one's behest
Alike to the rest
A gift without resale
Now another new eye will see my work
Now another new tongue will taste the earth
Welcome to the expanse
You have your own chance
Although I should mention
This is all that you'll know
A beautiful home
Born out of intention
I'm the author of everything you are
(And everything you'll be)
I've awakened your hungry open heart
(And child, you will feed)
Time aligning with thought
I see what I'm not
And wonder who I am
Crying out for a change
I have in good faith
You made me to withstand
You awakened the heart that let this in
(I promise I'd be good)
Yet those who follow equate this pain to sin
(I'd live just like I should)
Screaming, knees to the floor
I asked for no more
Than freedom from my truth
Raised believing that I
Was born to feel lies
And parse them in such youth
The perfect story of flesh mismatching soul
(From such an early age)
And I was only a kid with no control
(Seems I was made to crave)
Your power mesmerizing
Your very will is earth-defying
Still, I was left with just myself
Sat beside my father crying
Struggling to silence the inner yell
All because I fear a Hell
Beholden to the rules
But who created rules?
If you would call it love
I don't know if I believe in love
If love is to refuse another way
Allow to fail then turn and say
It's just because I lost the love
Sentiments death-aligning
My heart gets heavy even trying
I freeze when simply asking why
Why everything that I've known
For my entire life about true grace
Feels vastly out of place
Just following the rules
The self-created rules
If this is out of love
I don't know if I believe in love
If love is to enlist without request
Accept the few and burn the rest
I can't say I believe in love
If this is love