Water myself down for you Tell me I look pretty in this lie Abandonment is so coveted by your type I'm yours, cause I don't wanna be mine I am cold, just so I can be held tight Control, isn't really what I like But it's your whole life That's why you love me right? Lately I don't feel quite real So how to love? And how to feel? Build myself by your ideals You loved me when I was your idea So how to love? And how to feel? Covering up all my bruises Say it's love so you can abuse it Built my house, you turned it to ashes Rebuilt it for me to take all the credit I'm lost, then I'm found I am weak, so throw me down Don't you know I was never your type The only thing you like is that I'm not mine Lately I don't feel quite real So how to love? And how to feel? Build myself by your ideals You loved me when I was your idea So how to love? And how to feel? And how to feel?