She's the quick one, the sad one, the fun one, the mean one Always telling friends how she wants to die She never really means it, just takes everything she has to stay alive Wake up, disconnect the feeling, memorize the dots in the ceiling Smoking breakfast out her bedroom window Taking three days to text back, saying sorry i've been a drag Destroying everything she can to get control She gave it all the money she had to make that settled feeling last But she don't want consolation, she just needs absolution She don't want sympathy, just needs her days to be easy This city is a sinking ship, not big enough for wrecks like us The future is a burning bridge, not bright enough to light me up She's the tall one, the smol one, the kind one, the mom one Means well but never says what she means Always asking what's the matter but rarely gets the answer that she needs She woke up in their apartment, the unsteady ground felt different Ugly crying at the kitchen table Taking three hits to think straight, saying sorry that i'm this way Cutting off everyone she can to feel stable She gave it all the money she had to make that anchored feeling last But she don't wants compliments, just needs conclusions She don't want fantasies, just something close to happy This city is a sinking ship, not big enough for wrecks like us The future is a burning bridge, not bright enough to light me up You were a hurricane, a barricade, romanticized insecticide And everything i wanted to be A kind-hearted coward, a clout chasing vampire And the one that i still see in every dream I gave you all the money i had to lock my nightmares in the past You took the good parts and ran but what's the future worth anyway? I'd probably do it all again This city is a sinking ship, not big enough for wrecks like us The future is a burning bridge, not bright enough to light me up