I wish that I didn't miss you Wish I could ignore your calls It's harder when you're older Because breaking up feels like divorce Now I have to restart But I don't know where to begin I'd die a massacre if it means you could love me for a bit If I'm gonna crash, might as well be amazing If I'm gonna jump, let it be from the Empire State I just wanna feel something I just wanna feel something If I'm gonna drink, I'm drinking till tomorrow If I'm gonna hurt, I want battle scars and bullet holes I just wanna feel something I just wanna feel something Give me a gift or a curse See I let you play me but it was just a mirror of my self worth I tried to follow My own footprints in the sand But if I'm going down, if I'm gonna love you I'm gon' love you with a plan If I'm gonna crash, might as well be amazing If I'm gonna jump, let it be from the Empire State I just wanna feel something I just wanna feel something If I'm gonna drink, I'm drinking till tomorrow If I'm gonna hurt, I want battle scars and bullet holes I just wanna feel something I just wanna feel something I just wanna feel something I just wanna feel something I just wanna feel something I just wanna feel something I hope it gets easier I hope that you see This whole time I was missing you I was really missing me