Paralyzed, constant decline Stabilize, take back what is mine Constant reminders of why I'm alive Sick of existing but too afraid to die Time is moving slower than it ever has I hope I'll be a better man when the year has past I'm a shell of my former self Struggling to cope with the hand I've been dealt Paralyzed, constant decline Stabilize, take back what is mine Constant reminders of why I'm alive Sick of existing but too afraid to die Nothing to prove Unfaltering mental abuse Everything to lose I refuse to acknowledge the truth Bipolar mind Tell myself that I'm fine Ties that bind I have to leave the past behind Leave the past behind Fabricated delusion Mental intrusion Waste of space This is not how it ends I'll ascend from the lowest I've ever been This is not how it ends This is not how it ends This is not how it ends This is not how it ends