"Yea, uhh, Well, Im about to fuckin' kill myself"
"Listen, ya dont wanna do that, ok you dont wanna do that, ok?"
"Im gunna uhhh..."
"Theres so many fuckin reasons why I dont even need to be here anymore, Imma put a slug in my fuckin head"
"You dont wanna do that, you wanna be on earth, ok?
"Fuck that shit man, I gotta gun right now"
"Put it away"
"And i got it right under my chin, man fuck that"
"Take it away from your chin"
"Im gonna fuckin blow my head all over the fuckin ceiling"
"No, you're not"
"Fuck this shit man"
"Hey, just talk to me, ok?
It aint no point to me wakin up
Everybody's time I'm takin up (Noo)
I got nobody, their aint a shoulder near
I cant stay here and its colder there (where?)
I dont wanna look back 'cause its gonna hurt
I slice my wrist and It's gonna squirt
For me, everybody holds the hate
I get backstabbed and everybody holds the stake
Theres no roads to take, I'm in a circle drive
Bustin at myself an Im tryin to survive
I'll dissapoint you, and I will let you down
I aint got many homeboys comin around
You dont understand, so dont say you do
I swear I'll put a motherfuckin' slug in you (now now.)
Im the only one, the lonely one
At home alone loadin the gun, thinkin why not?
"Why not? Why would you wanna die? Ok, Ok, you have feelings, inside your head, ok? I understand that. feelings lead to depression, When you have depression, you have a lonely void inside your heart, ok, and your heart means everything to the world, ok?"
I got court comin up, I stoled a truck
I got a bitch pregnant and im broke as fuck
I wanna get high but I got piss test
Im always 1st name on top of shit list
Get this, the witch has made my chest
It's pernament nightly visiting nest
Their aint no clothes that I look good in
I'm the motherfuckin big red train that couldn't
I got no family, I stoled they shit
Restraining orders, an I still wont quit
I hot rock bottem, and then I fell in a hole
And then I fell through the floor, in that hole some more
I've been missin for a year, nobodys lookin (I am)
I got beat down an my shit tooken (Ooh)
I look ahead an all I see is more of the same
All this self-inflicted bullet hole, pourin my brain
"Oook, I understand that you're in pain, ok? I understand everything you're going through, I've been there myself, ok, now, your pain is my pain, alright? And I feel your pain, And I wanna be your friend, just me and you
Friends."
I dream about cuttin' heads off wit a shovel
The dreams are gettin serious, think I'm in trouble
I dont hold memory for more then an hour
I'm tired as fuck, and i'm drained of power
I aint halfway there an im all out of time
I'm like a crushed lightbulb, all outta shine
I been all around the world an no place is home
I wanna see the other side when I face this chrome
I'm butt naked, i been jackin off, gettin' drunk
It's my last hours alive, who gives a fuck? (me)
It dont matter, I'm doin this shit in the garage
Tryin' make it easier for them ta clean my head splage
This bitch I loved, I hope she finds me
Still up in the chair wit my thoughts behind me (Wait, Wait)
I'm about to do IT! (noooo) (A beep)
"Can you hold for a second?" (Wait, Wait)
"Hello?"
"Hey, whats up?"
"Where you at?"
"Right down the street."
"Wit who?"
"My girl Shannon. We were wonderin' if we could stop by?"
"Well, shit, yea, Come on by"
"Really?"
"Yea... Hey Hey.Hey"
"I know bring some blunts, Alright."
"Uh huh, aight, bye"
"So we pray, are father who art in heaven, hallow be thy name, thy kingdom come, thy will be done"