This pain inside of me is so pure that it's hard to ignore I start to suffocate myself to block out all of my thoughts I'm waking up to medication, fall asleep to medication Just can't seem to stop my concentration (SHUT UP) Fuck it, I'm sick of myself All the bullshit just keeps on following me And swallowing me, right after the lobotomy There's nothing left inside of me I'm just fucking hiding me and trying to numb the pain Pill after pill after pill everyday Blowing all my money, so I can liquefy my liver Blazing up the weed, even though I don't smoke Trying sleep but I can't sleep so back to medication I don't even know if I want to live or die Laying on the floor feeling like I want to fly So I can see my dad for the very first time Would he even want to see me? Just because I'm "that guy" I want to overdose, it's just so easy to die I want to get outside of me, and really feel alive