And I know you think you know me
But you don't know where I've been
I'm a mess, what's happiness
When you just fuck it up again?
I might lose my way
I might not come back
I know you try to stay to help
But go and save yourself
This ain't a way to be livin', I get it
Didn't know bad it was until you actually said it
Breakin' down but tellin' everyone I'm fine, I know I promised
I would talk before I crossed that line again but didn't
Yeah, I guess that's just the way my head works
Open up another couple scars before you mend yours
I don't learn from watching others crash, I gotta wreck first
'Cause I don't think that love is really love until you get hurt, yeah
And I know what you think
Said it's hard to love me when I
Don't love myself and I'm on the brink
Of trading in this sobriety for a fucking drink
And I don't wanna talk about it till we're bout to sink, yeah
Maybe I just need a day off
Maybe I'm just more fucking comfortable in the chaos
You say you love me, so you stay on
Invested all your time and wonder when it's gonna pay off, huh?
And I know you think you know me
But you don't know where I've been
I'm a mess, what's happiness
When you just fuck it up again?
I might lose my way
I might not come back
I know you try to stay to help
But go and save yourself
So afraid of the failure that now I'm barely livin'
Spent a lifetime of working with nothin' left to give it
Lookin' back at the things we been through and feel I miss it
I been running forever, I don't know how you didn't
When you're sitting right next to me, don't know where I go
I'm in my head with these songs and pick apart every note
These insecurities killing me but I never show
The things I'm thinking are probably worse than you'll ever know
Yeah, we been feeling like we can't move
Same house, same walls, but a different view
Spending time avoiding this inconvenient truth
I got some problems and I'm sick of trying to blame you
'Cause I feel, like I been, on my own, in my head
The light goes, and I see
You fall when standing beside me
And every night I lie awake
Tryin' to fight but every day, I'm feeling less, feeling less like me
Still waiting for me to open up
She ain't cheating, just fantasizing bout who I was
Fell in love with this image that I portray, but know it ain't a lie
It's who I want to be at the end of the day
I know the feelings and the thoughts will keep me down
Depression and anxiety, hanging inside the clouds
No matter where I go, they keep following me around
And you think that one day, I can make it out
And I know you think you know me
But you don't know where I've been
I'm a mess, what's happiness
When you just fuck it up again?
I might lose my way
I might not come back
I know you try to stay to help
But go and save yourself
(Go and save yourself)
Go and save yourself
(Go and save yourself)
Go and save yourself