Where'd you go? I miss you so
And I don't think I've ever felt so alone
Ayo, some days they just don't hit
Some days I wanna quit, give up all the music shit and dip
I used to think that this would make me happy if I made it
But lately I've just been so uninspired and keep complaining
'Bout everything in my life and home, I'm always on the phone
More people listen now, but I've never felt more alone
And I don't know if that's a product of the job
Or more the fact I call it a job now and I refuse to stop
When I feel I'm rundown to try to see my friends
If you ignore enough of 'em, you'll stop receiving texts
And when I am around 'em I'm too stuck inside my head
So then I don't enjoy the moment, I just fear the day it ends
So, I want you to know I'm a little fucked up
And I just can't shake it, more close to breaking
Than I've ever been at any point in my whole life
Stayin' up and I'm talkin' to myself, like
Where'd you go? I miss you so
And I don't think I've ever felt so alone
Where'd you go? I miss you so
And I don't think I've ever felt so alone
Please, come back home
Yeah, my girl loves, but don't know if she's still in love with me
I ain't had a drug, but don't feel like I'm in recovery
Overthink the future then everything starts to fuck with me
Feel like I'll get used for this content until they're done with me
But I should be happy, look at these numbers doubling
All the while the thoughts have just gradually gotten troubling
Got an empty tank, it's just fear and depression runnin' me
While I built this up my life was crumbling down
They say that everything in life is beautiful
I try to keep that that in the forefront of my mind
But yesterday I fantasized my funeral
And that's the happiest I've been in some time, so
I don't know what's goin' on
But I know it used to help when I would put it in these songs
I always feared that I would end up here just like my mom
When she would isolate and get depressed then try to end it all (Ugh)
Yeah, it's scary 'cause I finally understand
That all the things you thought would fix the problems really can't
Like, why the fuck I feel this way if nothing's really bad?
'Cause happiness is not the absence of being sad, so
I guess I'm kinda fucked up and I just can't shake it
More close to breakin'
Than I've ever been at any point in my whole life
Lookin' back at all the good times we felt, like—
Where'd you go? I miss you so
And I don't think I've ever felt so alone
Where'd you go? I miss you so
And I don't think I've ever felt so alone
Please, come back home