Hello, everybody, my name is James, and I'm an alcoholic
I've been struggling with this, since I was a young teenager
And as I grow older, it just gets worse
Feels like alcoholism is the reason
I lost everything that I loved in my life
For some reason it's the only thing
That takes the pain of that away again
It's like the only thing that can kill my pain is another drink
If you understand how this might make a motherfucker go kinda
Kinda fucking crazy, you know what I'm saying?
Don't leave me alone now
When I'm alone I'm not my own self
A different person starts to grow inside me
I can't walk away
He's in my dome now
Telling me I shouldn't have grown up
I should've died and I'm just a waste of space
And the only relief, is a couple of drinks
A shot of the brown, burn it right out of me
This feeling of pain, am I just insane?
Cause that's what my whole family thinks
Bent over the sink, trying to think of a reason to stop that
Always the pain, sometimes the pain is so much I can't even get up
I thought I was tough, does that mean I'm lying about all the other stuff
I know that when I was drinking I just didn't gave a motherfuck, I was
Drinking on my fiff'
Had my bitch rolling up my spliff
I be on my shit, I-I be on my shit
I was (gone!)
Keep the drinks cold now
Keep that fucking blunt rolled up
There's not a force that can hold us
Cause I'm burning way too hot, I can't stop
I got a problem staying sober
Chip on my shoulder as I get older
I wonder how could I end up broken?
I cut my heart out and live wide open
Showing them all
That everyday is just more of the pain
Since I was sixteen young years old
And everyday I just chase it away
With this bottle and this bitch, oh no
Now I'm higher than her, driving was probably a mistake
So was drinking and snorting them pills you're never supposed to mix, wait
Is that a cop? Well, fuck a cop - all of them bitch made
I turn the corner and take me another sip mane
Cause I was
And now I can see my only friend
Back in the bottom of a bottle again
Drinking on my fiff', I be on ma shit
And now I can see my only friend
Back in the bottom of a bottle again