Listening to your voicemails just to hear your voice again I regret every call I missed But how could I know that this was Your last chance to not get well This is not how I expected things to go I guess that's the way it goes I don't know where we go But I know where I want to be To be back in your home Where I could stay for eternity I don't know if I've been coping with this like I should be I can't tell if I'm okay I've just been in a state of gray How could I have known I can't get past this Who decides when we go I never wanted to learn life without you But now I'm forced to know