A deep numbness has completely overwhelmed this beaten carcass Heaviness weighs down on fractured bones, fractured thoughts Severe insomnia teasing at every negativity Neglecting past trauma with a darkened reality Masking sickness with unimaginable torture The horrible thoughts that I perceive Mutilate what's around me I cleanse in the annihilation I cleanse in the annihilation Nervousness and uncertainty Worriment and misery Scrape at the inside of my head And carve endless images of damnation In my mind Will I ever be at ease All I want is a fucking mind at peace The tremors keep me awake at night I'm losing any sign of light A feeling of surrender My body goes numb and my vision expires Slipping into oblivion in panic Will forever be embedded in my haunted memory Completely lost in the darkest state of hysteria and helplessness The world vividly crumbles around me The walls caving in make the hallucinations extremely violent I am learning but not accepting that this is where cross over Am I answered or just an empty shell of nothingness Oh higher power, give this a purpose