The tortured howls of a motel ghost And the worshiped songs of a well-worn throat All cradle me as I waste alone On a fool's gold throne With my troubles all in tow It's $86 upfront for the key Tack on another hundred for the company It's on my dime, but she holds me tight We fk all night For a moment I'm alright Home is where I ought to be Out in the gentle country breeze with my family But cold in a casket I lie Bare knuckle boxing polished wood and I've grown so tired I've grown so tired The rounders shine their sawtooth grins With every page I burn for them As I sign myself away to grieve Through bloodstained sleeves In the ashes of my needs As I stand within a makeshift ring Of follies, lies, and broken things And I shout and howl and I cry and I sing Counting blessings down Crossing the X's of my doubts Oh Glory won't lay her hands on me Oh how it used to break me down but I'm finding peace Lord knows I cannot look back now So I try and swallow pride but it's awful going down It's so awful going down