Life passes in the blink of an eye
And it's crazy up to this point I've been living in lies
Seeing people that I wanna be and changing my life
Hoping maybe I can fit in and be someone they like
But in the end the only person that I hurt was myself
Couldn't take off my facade and share the feelings I felt
I folded pocket aces, then I hit the quads on the flop
Right then I realized that I should've kept the hand I was dealt but
Life lessons, I be living in debt
Bad decisions lead to conversations up in my head
I'm screaming at the mirror, I don't know what journey is next
Wait no I do, I just can't fathom how to take any steps
I'm living stressed, man I know there's people feeling the pain
Living daily with these demons that have come out to play
So in the end, honestly we're all just one in the same
Every morning, thinking damn another day in the rain
I'm lost, Hops verse, summed it up to a tee
Cause all these burdens on my back, are taking tolls on my feet
I'm barely standing on this boat that floated out in the sea
I'm trying to trust the one above and have no thoughts that I'll sink
But, it's difficult to find what I need
Can't phone a friend, cause not soul knows everything about me
Nobody knows everything I know I'm destined to be
But maybe one day I will sprout my own wings and
Fly higher than i've ever imagined
Maybe write songs that aren't all about sadness
Maybe live a little and find someone to laugh with
Go and see the world, create a homemade atlas
But that won't happen if I'm still conflicted inside
Took realistic out my head and tossed right in the fire
Took my hope and held it close to where my heart always lies
And kept learning, so my wings began growing in time
I gotta go, I can't be stuck inside this home
It's too comfortable, I'm sinking into what I know
When honestly I need to go out into life unknown
I can't be held back, from reaching the potential I've shown
No happiness ever comes if you ain't open to growth, so
Let it go, let the past stay past, and keep your eyes on the road
Yeah, I let some people leave
I had to let em go, to start bettering me
Great people but they never saw the dreams that I dreamed
Closed minded and I couldn't have that bleed into me
I couldn't live predictable, inside I have to be free
Cause every night I feel the stars are always right in my reach
There's never doubt inside my head, I always live to believe
That I can conquer any demons moving in on my street
Man I just wanna, feel free for the first time
Live, closed off from the world, no disguise
I'm getting torn by the waves when they pass by
I need to find some strength, I gotta find my way
I gotta find my place, all love no hate
No I'm not gonna, be the person they want, no
Cause I write my own fate
So I'm gonna fly higher than I've ever imagined
Maybe write songs that aren't all about sadness
Maybe live a little and find someone to laugh with
Go and see the world, create a homemade atlas
But that won't happen if I'm still conflicted inside
I need to take realistic and just burn it alive
Take my hope and hold it close to where my heart always lies
And keep learning, so my wings begin growing in time
And maybe I could be okay with wings I'd actually fly
Maybe people will stop telling me I'm wasting my time
Maybe those who think realistically will open their minds
And see the world for what it really is outside of the lines
Maybe life would turn around and I could hold up a smile
And maybe I could fly away from all the hate and denial
Maybe instead of complaining I might run for a while
Until I find the happiness that I've been chasing for miles