I'll keep hiding, pray you won't mind me Not making it to your boat or to your party I'll surrender the defender in my head When I'm ready but for now he's staying with me I'm the arrow, I'm the deer, and I'm lying on my basement floor I'm the girl in the mirror who hates me to the core The second time this month it won't be the last I didn't even hesitate when I drove past Your street we used to meet and go and bike to the beach Our initials are still carved on the bench but I haven't seen in weeks Take the train, go to Spain, finally have the day you've been dreaming of I hope you meet some nice boys, I hope you fall in love The $3000 I couldn't pay my dad told me it's too close to the due date You cried when it got canceled I hope you can forgive me and I hope it gets rescheduled Too much, too fast, too soon, I relapse I tried it all, I hit a wall, I got snd ignored all 9 of your calls I'm still a little kid I still can't go outside on my own I still have lots of friends and I'm still all alone One day I'll be better than this thing beneath my skin But for now I'm in hot water at the I'm so sorry 'biz