Am I non-committal? Or am I filled with brittle bones That bend When stressed but just a little By terror that will whittle them Down? We're runnin out Of choices now You're bringing out My choicest doubts My headache pounds And my nasal sounds Will bring me down And drown you out They're so damn loud I'm not always happy I'm not always happy I'm not always happy I'm not always happy You watch for my weekends You prey on my weakness You pat me with pretense I lower my defense I'm not always happy I'm not always happy I am not always happy I'm not always happy Oh I'll give you hell And you won't take it well A blade forged for me Is chopping down your tree You wince when I walk But you'll hear when I talk It's shit but it's free I don't care if you see I will always be the one The one that shot the starting gun Can you feel my silver tongue? It wraps around your great undone And will I know the way Widening whispers I hear them say That they plan to cripple me My path is probably deepening But I'm a blink in an instant A dot on a screen I can't help but avoid the feed But I am writing a book On the back of an Old receipt that I took from The man who gives away Most all that he's paid for Oh he can't help but love stolen labor Why this fate? How could the searchlight have been so late? You brush it away, say I overrate I wish that I had overate Yeah that's the freedom floor It fucked up my shoes but I can't ignore The stains that line the only door It's bleeding a bit but it's out for war