This is a funeral For the puberty I never had For the relationship with my dad For the half-assed friends who never texted me back This is a funeral For the girls I never kissed For all the flirting that I missed When I was too young and in the closet and anxious To even give a hug Let alone to hold her hand This is a funeral For the times I was black 'Cause I was scared to be a firework Scared my sparks would cause burns Scared my lights would leave them blind This is a burial for 1000 lives This is a funeral This is a funeral For the church folks that resisted For the times I was convinced that I didn't deserve love that they did 'Cause what's between my legs doesn't matter When I die This is a funeral For the expectation I'll do anything but survive This is my eulogy for being alive This is a funeral I'm ok the funeral's the start of healing pain (This is a funeral) Grief can't get me if I am awake (This is a funeral) Beginner's mind is how I learn to be safe (This is a funeral)