Aye this year man
This year's been a bumpy ride man
We made it through
We made it through who woulda knew
Hey Durza keep hittin them strings for a second
I got something to tell them you know
Cause lately I been off
That got me feelin' gone
Got no one to listen so I put it in a song
Got me on a mission yeah I know I'm here for long
Ya and Covid nearly killed me I ain't talking about no cough
This is straight from the heart man
This is a vulnerable side of me I don't usually talk about
Okay
Covid introduced me to depression and anxiety
I used to be the loudest in the room but now I'm moving quietly
They confused by all my talent I can tell by how they eying me
Afraid that I might make it best not try to lie to me
I'm seekin' for the girl that I could hold onto and lie with me
I preach to God to guide me to light I been aspiring
And all these nights alone they gettin' tiering
But seeing momma pushing thru to me has been inspiring
Cause lately I been off
That got me feelin' gone
Got no one to listen so I put it in a song
Got me on a mission so I know I'm here for long
Ya and Covid nearly killed me I ain't talking about no cough
This year I swear
This year's been a reality check for me
And this song is not meant for any streams or commercial success
This is a message that might inspire a few people
And make people keep their heads up
You know I don't usually get on my vulnerable side
And you only see one side of me that's always the optimistic, positive side but
You know this year's the first year I actually experienced anxiety and depression
Dark thoughts and pessimistic thoughts
And I decided I had to share that because
I used to consider myself as one of the most mentally healthy people in the world
Where my mental health was at an all-time high
And I really thought I was invincible for that
And then this year came through and just completely tore those walls down
And I was in a vulnerable space I'd never found myself in
And I swear to God if it wasn't for this music stuff I wouldn't of made it through
I'm sure I wouldn't of
And that got me thinking
If I considered my mental health as strong going into this
And it took that much of a toll on me
I can't even imagine those who might've already been struggling
Going into these tough times
You know NSL stands for Never Stop Laughing
And there's a reason why we called it that
And don't get me wrong I'm not out the woods yet
I'm still fighting my own demons and overcoming my own struggles
But I do see the light at the end of the tunnel and I think that
There's still a lot I need to figure out in my life
Both in my personal life and in my growth as a person
My identity crisis
It's part of my journey
And it's gona lead me to be the person I'm supposed to be
This year I been asking myself a lot of questions
Like what is love
What is commitment
What is loyalty
And how can love be so easy to find but so hard to maintain
All these questions I don't have the answers to yet but I know it will one day
And that day will come on its own without me having me to force feed it
In the meantime I just keep my head up
Keep making music and keep meeting dope people
And lastly I would like to thank each and every person who is involved in this project
There's a reason why you were selected to be on here
And it felt like the message was complete with your voice on it
I would like to thank everyone for listening to this project
As it is the hardest thing I ever worked on
And the proudest piece of work I've ever put out
This is not only for me but this is also for my city
We need to keep inspiring each other as one
And move collectively rather than individually
And most importantly, don't forget
To never stop laughing
Cause things don't happen to you
Things always happen for you