Tried to tell myself to rest today
Turned that feeling off and pressed the weight
Walk a path I know I'm blessed to take
I find a track; the best of eight
Only one might even make the cut
My bleeding heart just throws the rest away
I wonder if they got to hear the ones I hate
Would I still sit upon this pedestal of medals
Make em cheer if I participate
Or am I just another lost wav
I know my father's shape
Just as a shadow looming over me
My mama say its where I get this poetry
Stereotypes of a black youth
I was hooping tryna be Kobe Bean
And switched it up for hooks and flowing over beats
Niggas steady hoeing me
Told me that I could be anything
Long as I got a plan for when my passion fold on me
Just coping on these 808's and hope its weak
So I don't gotta drop and hear the same niggas start to notice me
Talking bout my voice and how I sound
Like any choice of black or brown
Who making noise up in the town more than I ever will
Treat me like a toy and put me down
When it gets time to settle down
The smiles fade if I don't got no buzz or get a mill
Hoes just hit me up tryna be loud
Ain't got no play when I was quiet
I treat love more like commotion than a feeling
And that's just how I'm feeling
A fuck about my feelings
Got the fuck up out my feelings
Ain't no fuckin time for feelings
Tryna be a leader
Been a lot of dark days, runnin outta space for any leisure
Still ain't where I wanna be
If this is life than I don't wanna keep it
Never made a damn thing change from a life so fucking peaceful
So it's war
Self talk
Like
Watch your mind
Watch your thoughts
Watch your mouth nigga
Watch your mind
Watch your thoughts
Watch your mouth nigga
Watch your mind
Watch your thoughts
Watch your mouth nigga
Watch your mind
Watch your mouth