Another night in my bedroom Thinking of the things I am supposed to do But I can't help so maybe I'll accept I might be the type that wasn't meant for them Cause I still want to fly, I still believe I can Though I'm older now, I pocketed some innocence Maybe that's naive, I have been known to dream That's why I still watch the movies on the big screen The secret's out I'm just a grown-up kid But this is the year I've started thinking of re-phrasing it Cause I sure do feel alive, you can't take that from me I refuse to live my life in a game of hide and see It's either this or nihilism, and I divorced pessimism The stars are lighting up the sky, and I want to go do it with them I don't know where people go, don't know if I'll die alone But I might be here for a while, so I'm gonna make myself at home They said safety first is how to get through life Well if that's true then why do I feel like I'd rather die? What if what they said is just a bunch of lies? I'll let you know I'm gonna go see what's on the other side I watched this interview, I heard a big name say "Delusion or premonition, you gotta find out one way" Don't look too far ahead, it's one foot and then the next I'm sure that's what Junko said up Mountain Everest Now I lay me down to sleep And when I wake I hope I keep A measure on this heart of mine Checking in like I've done tonight