Started treating weed like a medicine
Can't be disrupted when I'm in my element
Very few niggas that I'm not better than
That's that narcissism ready to settle in
Now that success is knocking at my door
I fear the repercussions it might have on all my folks
Used to dream of the day when everybody would see me
Ironic enough but fame is not like you see on TV
Nobody really know me but my girl or my mama
It's better that way, keep my name out your drama
I don't wanna feel like I'm giving too much away
Privacy is a luxury in the present day
I just wanna be happy, easier said than done
Make the most out of life, you don't get another one
Fuck her so good might make her a little one
Fuck 'till I turn that ass into cinnabuns
For now it's Pogo, Pizza Pockets on the dinner plate still
Drink a lot of water trying to meditate still
People from back home call me a renegade still
I ran away for the better, yeah
Every time I think of joy, I lose a little
Tryna fill the void with substances
Not gon' lie, the wait is unbearable
Somebody told me patience, it all gon' pay
I think of joy and I lose a little
Tryna fill the void with substances
Not gon' lie, the wait is unbearable
Somebody told me patience, yeah
Remember the days of 10.25 a hour
Never forget when we made ten a hour
I wonder what's gon' happen with money, fame and power
I can already feel myself turning cold and sour
Never had it tough, I'm well aware of that
I'll never have enough, yeah, I'm aware of that
If I keep chasing happiness, I'll never find it
I think it's just a matter of where your head is at
Niggas not worried about my sanity
But I know my ego is my worst enemy
It took me time to realize nobody knows what they're doing
I really thought there was a recipe
I look at you and you look like you got it figured out
I look around me, nobody look like they live in doubt
But everything changes when niggas open up
It can get rough sometimes, yeah
Every time I think of joy, I lose a little
Tryna fill the void with substances
Not gon' lie, the wait is unbearable
Somebody told me patience, it all gon' pay
I think of joy and I lose a little
Tryna fill the void with substances
Not gon' lie, the wait is unbearable
Somebody told me patience, yeah
Took a little while but I learnt my lesson
Fucked without a rubber, ooh, she had me stressing
Used to hold a .45, that was part of my dressing
You come to my hood better know to check in
I remember when she wouldn't even give it over
Now I clap my hands and she running over
Singing like a bird, now I got 'em guessing
Jesus you the angel, better count my blessings