Maybe I should get away
'Cause I've been feelin' like I ain't worth shit no more (no more)
Maybe a cabin by the lake would help
If you love me won't you say it
And if you don't then let me hear it anyway
Self-destruction starts again
So I'm breakin' everything that I'm holdin' close, yeah
I don't know why
I don't know why
Push you until you go, then
Look around and there's no one by my side
And I wonder why
And I wonder why, yeah
Oh why, yeah
I got so good at lyin'
That it feels the same
I'm diggin' my own grave here
'Cause I'm only this closed
When I need you the most
But I know you're leavin' anyways, yeah
Before you grow, you gotta break
Before the calm is all the rain, now
I'm a hundred miles away
Somewhere on Cedar Lane
Maybe I should change my name (change my name)
'Cause you don't know me like I thought you did before
I thought you did before, no
I just hope the medication helps
'Cause lately I can't even fake it, no no
What's the point of even tryin' anyways
What's the point of even tryin' anyways
Self-destruction starts again
So I'm breakin' everything that I'm holdin' close, yeah
I don't know why
I don't know why
Push you until you go, then
Look around and there's no one by my side
And I wonder why
And I wonder why, yeah
Oh why, yeah
I got so good at lyin'
That it feels the same
I'm diggin' my own grave here
'Cause I'm only this closed
When I need you the most
But I know you're leavin' anyways, yeah
Before you grow, you gotta break
Before the calm is all the rain, now
I'm a hundred miles away
Somewhere on Cedar Lane
Somewhere on Cedar Lane, yeah yeah
Givin' in to what I've been fightin'
All this fuckin' pain that I'm fightin'
I'm not runnin' now, I'm not hidin'
I'm not hidin'
I'm not hidin'
I'm on Cedar Lane
Come and find me
Come and find me