My therapist calls it healing
All this processing and reliving
My mother wonders when I'll get over it
My father don't ask questions
He says "Thank God you got out at the last second"
My brother good at listening but I'll bet he's sick of it
And I still have questions
It's the mostly forever
Holding lights for answers
Begging for sleep is my new anthem
I wake up in a panic
You're name on my lips
Cold sweat no breath and
I'd do anything to forget
You've never been at my workplace
Maybe it's too soon, babe, to see your face
And I don't know if you've ever told me the truth
But I hate you because I trusted
For the first time i gave you my best end
How sad to think maybe you did too
And I still have questions
It's the mostly forever
Holding lights for answers
Begging for sleep is my new anthem
I wake up in a panic
You're name on my lips
Cold sweat no breath and
I'd do anything to forget
I tried to apologize to my brother
I didn't when I was bleeding I bled onto so many harbors
I want to say sorry to my best friend
Wish I heard her when she said she was worried
Instead of hiding all the things you did
I'm sorry that my momma for the sleepless nights
To my father for never saying he was right
At the end of the day they stayed by my side
Pulling back the curtains to open my eyes
God it's bright
And I still have questions
It's the mostly forever
Holding lights for answers
Begging for sleep is my new anthem
I wake up in a panic
You're name on my lips
Cold sweat no breath and
I'd do anything to forget
My therapist calls it healing