So here's the deal
You're going to fall in love with someone
Who's going to fall out of love with you
And maybe you'll want answers
Or maybe you won't
You'll always have questions
Dancing a kick line in the back of your head
And maybe you'll want the pain to go away
Or maybe you won't
But it will bruise and heal over time
Or burst like a clogged artery
You'll run out of ways to bleed
And find ways to style your hair
That soften your angles
And make you look like you might be
Someone who's easier to love
I'm not okay
Don't know how I'll get through today
I wish that you would come my way, I'd meet you by the shore
I kinda wanna change my name
Pack a bag and send myself away
So I can never be someone for you to just ignore
Why don't you need me anymore?
You'll try the reddest lipstick you can find and wear it like a warning sign
Until you're about to leave the house
And you decide that you look fucking stupid
You can't pull this off
You can't turn your hard edges
Into some sort of fashion statement
You'll wipe off the lipstick off the back of your hand
And then you'll look like you've been kissed senseless
But you haven't been kissed at all
You'll start crying, collapse into bed, crawl back out
Call your best friend in sadness, hang up on the second ring
It's all so fucking hard to stop loving somebody
But it's so fucking easy for them to stop loving you
You are not a warrior, you are a windowpane
Sharp edge but easy to break, or maybe not
Maybe you're the brick, if you are, it's a brick too heavy
A brick too heavy to throw or carry
You'll fall in love with somebody who'll fell out of love with you
It hurts like a fucking bitch, right?
I don't know why, I thought I could make it sound poetic
All I came up with were metaphors about breaking
And bleeding and even more bleeding
I'm not okay
Don't know how I'll get through today
I wish that you would come my way, I'd meet you by the shore
(By the shore)
I kinda wanna change my name
Pack a bag and send myself away
So I can never be someone for you to just ignore
Why don't you need me anymore?
Why don't you need me anymore?
I'm sick of crying on the floor
I don't know what I was missing, thought you would listen
It all just went away
Guess I don't need you anymore
Maybe I should leave or slam the door
I don't know what you were missin', I won't fuckin' listen
I'm over yesterday
Tell me the things you haven't admitted to yourself
Like you're lonely, depressed, and suicidal
When it's 2.a.m and your mind starts to rattle
Do you pick up the blade, or the bottle?
They're the difference between breathing and feeling alive
2 a.m. is someone who will find all the dirt hiding underneath your nails
And see every skeleton in your closet
And they will still answer the phone every time
We're all the same at 2 a.m.
(Hi, maybe you could come visit me in the summer)
(We can go to the beach or down to the river)
I'm not okay
Don't know how I'll get through today
I wish that you would come my way, I'd meet you by the shore
(By the shore)
I kinda wanna change my name
Pack a bag and send myself away
So I can never be someone for you to just ignore
Why don't you need- (fuck)
I'm not okay
Don't know how I'll get through today
I wish that you would come my way, I'd meet you by the shore
(By the shore)
I kinda wanna change my name
Pack a bag and send myself away
So I can never be someone for you to just ignore
Why don't you need me anymore?