I'm trying to learn the difference between love and codependence And why it makes my insides ache And I can't tell if you're something I Need or the feeling that I should shake I need to start being honest with myself And how I feel Maybe if I tell myself that I'm doing fine You would stick around and wouldn't mind me feeling so low I'm trying to stop focusing on the bad parts of my head Because I know how it feels to be on the receiving end of it I need to start taking care of myself And how I feel Maybe if I tell myself that I'm doing fine You would stick around and wouldn't mind me feeling so low It gets so fucking old and I'm getting too old I'm bitter now, but one day I won't be I'll be sitting at a party, laughing while you're smiling it's all... And i'm angry now but one day I won't be I'll be holding your hand, swearing I'm happy I'm happy, I'm happy, I'm happy, I'm home