I think I lost myself when I started going out
Taking drugs just to numb my pain
I think I lost myself when my mother look me in the eyes
And told me that I'm "Not the same"
I think I lost myself when everyone figured out
I'm a screw-up and an addict
Looking at the world like it's crazy
There's no one to save me
And there's only one reason that I'm mad
I'm mad because I
I know I should have asked for more than what I've gotten
It's hard to bite the apple if you know the apple's rotten
They feeding me unhealthy habits but I couldn't stop it
They told me love is natural, but this is feeling forced
Don't bite the hand that feeds you
Well, unless of course
Unless it's constantly feeding you stuff that you can't stomach
I'm not the one to tell them that I always ran from it
Confrontation makes me sick I feel like I'm gon' vomit
I don't wanna be the person that just hides behind
Every wall I throw up, while I die inside
This knot in my stomach won't stop until it's tied my mind
It's held me down for too long and now my breath is gone
I hope I get a second chance but there's no death respawn
I know I'm probably not the person that can love on you
But I'm a walking consequence of what love can do
And if they treating you like dirt, then they will shovel you
Into your grave where you will die and then cover you
And swear to God, and claim that they were loving you
'Cause when you're six feet down there no longer under you
Having a higher person doesn't mean you're fireproof
X got shot, all he did was inspire youth
If I could do one thing, it'd be inspired you
To look inside the mirror and stop lying
To the only fucking person that would die for you
I think I lost myself when I let myself fuck around and fell for the wrong one
Ay
I think I lost myself when my mental health started giving signs and I ignored them
Ay
I think I lost myself when I found all my friends doubting all the dreams that I had
Looking at the world like it's crazy, there's no one to save me
That ain't the only reason that I'm mad
I'm mad because I
Found myself trapped in the dark, sad in my heart
Mad at God just to cap it all off
Your words and eyes, they ain't matching at all
But nowadays I smile, I'm just laughing it off
It's a prison cell in the head all the time
When you're going to hell just to get through life
Just to make it through another night
Another sibling tryna pick a fight
Family's not normal, guess that it's alright
I just learned to live with it and adapt to life (life)
In fact, who am I kidding, can you pass the knife?
Just so I can slice into the afterlife
The only time I'm happy is when I grab the mic
It's like they can't be happy, so they mad that I'm
It's like they don't have passion, so they after mine (why?)
Asking a bunch of questions but I answer mine
I think I lost myself when I let myself fuck around and fell for the wrong one
Ay
I think I lost myself when my mental health started giving signs and I ignored them
Ay
I think I lost myself when everyone figured out I'm a screw-up and an addict
Looking at the world like it's crazy, there's no one to save me
It ain't the only one reason that I'm mad
I'm mad because I