'95
Privately payin' for sins of my father while stuntin' in public
I had to step up and do what he couldn't and be who he wasn't
Still got the gold in my mouth every time that I slide to the function
Sittin' there smilin' and wavin' and frontin' like I don't feel nothin'
Said that she love me, but when it got hectic, she packed up and left
Been up for months at a time, I'll be honest, I can't get no rest
I got the call that some nigga just ran up and murdered my brother
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Rather feel nothing at all than to feel my pain
(Rather feel nothing at all than to feel my-)
It's so many troublin' thoughts swimming through my brain
(It's so many troublin' thoughts swimming through my-)
And I'm just tryna drown 'em all out
Rather be numb right now
I been tryna fight it but I'm sinkin' deeper every day
I'd rather feel nothing at all than to feel my pain (I'd rather feel, I'd rather feel)
It's so many troublin' thoughts swimming through my brain
(Yeah, troublin' thoughts swimming through my)
And I'm just tryna drown 'em all out
(And I'm just tryna drown 'em all)
Rather be numb right now (rather be numb)
I been tryna fight it but I'm sinkin' deeper every day
Rather feel nothing at all than to feel my pain
(I been tryna fight it but I'm sinkin' deeper every day)
(And I'm just tryna drown 'em all-out)
Rather feel nothing at all than to feel my pain
(Rather feel nothing at all than to feel my pain)
(I been tryna fight it but I'm sinkin' deeper ever-)