Faking to be awake I'm trying to get a break from tears I should feel lucky to be alive But now I dive in my fears I'm playing cool still afraid of apathy Their affection should be earned I give up time laying down on the sofa Am I wasting something My journey felt like a polish winter I still remember the cold That's why I'm staying home An ancient grudge speaks uneasily But stays at my door I couldn't be a gambler And meanwhile the others have taken the lead Do I have the right to become someone I feel like a hunter without prey And is there a way to find my own? My journey felt like a polish winter I still remember the cold But why not fight to create around it Give me the time it takes to find a meaning And I will answer the call to be the greatest of all