I was raised to stand alone
A loan that cost a life of pain
I was told to trade my sole
I'll trade my soul to walk again
Wasn't raised by super men
A house that's filled with Lois Lanes
Wasn't raised by silver spoons
Just pot and pans that's filled with stains
I seen heaven, hell
But see I felt a place I can't explain
Life is deep as well the deepest well
My tears will fill like rain
See I seen it all my demons call
Like: "You should take a break"
See I'm black and all my trauma
Bury deep we wear like chains
I'm black as gold the blackest souls
So black I dance with Holy Ghost
Black as coal and burning rose
So black I always do the most
Black as stones that's paved the roads
Create the clothes
But we in cloaks and no one knows
'Cause they keep shredding pages
That we niggas wrote
See, I'm falling deep and falling deep
I've fallen deep enough
See, I'm counting sheep I'm counting sheep
To sleep is kind of tough
They say I'm Meryl Streep or Morgan free
The way I'm acting up
But my trauma hold me down
Till I can drown man shit is tough
Why me all my feeling buried way too deep it's hard to find me
Kind of hard to sleep, hard to think
Don't remind me
Swear I'm trying, in this world where niggas dying
Don't remind me, Don't remind me
Why me all my feeling buried way too deep it's hard to find me
Kind of hard to sleep, hard to think
Don't remind me
Swear I'm trying, in this world where niggas dying
Don't remind me, don't remind me
Why me all my feeling buried way too deep it's hard to find me
Kind of hard to sleep, hard to think
Don't remind me
Swear I'm trying, in this world where niggas dying
Don't remind me, don't remind me
Don't remind me
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How many nights 'till we living out dreams
Been a minute it seems
Couple years when I blink
How many words till the moment is real
Know the ink never spill
Want a house on the hills
How many tears 'till we losing our souls
'Till we losing our flows
'Till we selling our shows
How many pills we ain't counting no dose
When we getting our rose
Surely only God knows
25 in a minute, want a smile call a dentist
Back and forth like it's tennis
Taking shots like it's Lenox
Wanna drown in this liquor now
Maybe close my eyes lose awareness
Tell me why I be jealous
Should be proud when they winning
Give 'em flowers 'cause you willing
But I'm sour what a fucking coward
'Cause I'm 25 in a minute, want a smile call a dentist
Back and forth like it's tennis
Taking shots like it's Lenox
Wanna drown in this liquor now
Maybe close my eyes lose awareness
Tell me why I be jealous
Should be proud when they winning
Give 'em flowers 'cause you willing
But I'm sour what a fucking coward