I don't wanna be the same that I once was
Went from carrying guns,
Lovin' the dames, end up married to one
In society had plans when I buried my son
Had to cut me out the game, like the cesarian's done
I had it all, had a lot of homie's climbing up the ladder fall
What you expect, had my back against the wall
You fakes out here actin' you ain't have my back at all
Dialin' collect from the corrections when I call
Locked up the majority of my twenty's
Was already in the pen and authorities broke me mentally
I just said I was sorry after they sentenced me
And now i really feel sorry for all my enemies
The ones who truly had my back keep dyin' on me
And all these so called friends keep relyin' on me
All these pigs, one time keep spyin' on me
Climbin' back to top, we gone be fine homie
I had it all, everybody love you on top and you a star
But when you hit the bottom and you got no one to call
And all these fuckin' record labels got you by the balls
We had it all, i had it all
In order to come back from the top i had to fall
And how you bounce back with your back against the wall
And now you held back and you gotta stand tall
We had it all, I had it all
The biggest rapper in Canada, I had a cold place manager
Had a lot of advantages, mental scars but i bandaged
My money would multiply so my problems would vanish
And started doing to much drugs and drinkin' thought i could handle it
Ended up like a zombie, my house was empty and haunted
I went from time magazine to being completely unwanted
I was a king with a crown, was no bringing me down
Became a junkie, I was nothing but a lingering clown
I got a self destructive pattern and twice its already shattered me
Mental assault and battery, but i recharged my battery
(I'm back) with vengeance, don't think i forgot your slick intentions
I don't need to make amens with all the stupid fuckin' friendships
I'm a one man gang and I'm gonna come back strong
And now that Madchild's back, I don't make one bad song
These pussy rappers quick to catch a wave, but hit a coral reef
To busy for your funeral but I'm gonna send a floral reef
I had it all, everybody love you on top and you a star
But when you hit the bottom and you got no one to call
And all these fuckin' record labels got you by the balls
We had it all, I had it all
In order to come back from the top i had to fall
And how you bounce back with your back against the wall
And now you held back and you gotta stand tall
We had it all, I had it all
I thought I had it all but not material things though
Surrounded by my family its the feeling it brings yo
My demons with in, made me a slave to the pipe
Just erasing all my days, laying awake late at night
Cold sweats I'm drenched, thinking of people who passed on
I walk a fine line and I'm looking to latch on
I grasp on, all alone in the cold
But i give it my all, every part of my soul
All my family that I lost, I'm sorry that I wasn't there
I know we didn't talk but it wasn't 'cause I didn't care
Imprisoned by my own mind
Gettin' so good, even start to believe my own lies
That things will never be the same
Look into my eyes now tell me that you see my pain
I know I had it all
But its hard to get away with my back against the wall
I had it all